Bet you thought I was gone didn't ya? Nahhh, just "on a break" to quote the philosophers Ross Gellar and Rachel Green.
The last five days have involved (in no particular order) sleep, catching up with friends, drinks with friends, laundry, dinner with friends, sleep, shopping, hanging out with friends, sleep and an occasional walk or two, followed by (did I mention) sleep?
It's been a strange week back. While I surely left my heart in San Francisco, I found it in Sedona. I learned so much about myself and who I am REALLY am inside, that it has been a challenge to align and/or reconcile the new Zen Tara with the old San Francisco Tara. To demonstrate, here are a few examples of the daily battle that goes on in he deep dark recesses of my mind (be afraid, be very afraid):
ANNOYING DRIVERS
Zen Tara: You don't know what type of day these people have had, just slow down and get there safely. You aren't in a hurry. Send them love and light.
San Francisco Tara: You mother freakin, idiotic, what the hell is your problem, you don't go 65 in the fast lane you stupid son of a...
WAITING IN LINE BEHIND SLOW PEOPLE
Zen Tara: Use this time to close your eyes and quiet your mind, its like a mini nap.
San Francisco Tara: What is your freaking problem, this is not a bank, you do not pay your bills, get your money from the ATM and get the HELL OUT OF MY WAY!!!
WORKING OUT
Zen Tara: One of the most important connections is the mind-body-spirit connection. Working out will do you worlds of good.
San Francisco Tara: So will 5 days on your couch catching up on So You Think You Can Dance and Kathy Griffin: My Life on the D-List. Laughter is exercise, right?
STATE OF MY PERSONAL LIFE
Zen Tara: You are love and light. You have the tools inside you to create the love and respect you want from life. Have patience and stay centered and grounded and it will come.
San Francisco Tara: You are one "enlightened" quote away from your friends and loved ones shipping you off to a commune you do realize that nut job?
It seems my San Francisco "energy" is being picked up by Aunt Marian a state away. She has checked in a few times with me and sent me very sweet and encouraging notes. Apparently I was write in that Spirit thinks I need all the help I can get. I'm working on it Spirit, I'm working on it...
Tomorrow (at 6:00 a.m. thanks to a very eager and well meaning friend - since when did a 3:00 a.m. wake up call become the norm for vacations these days?! Oy.) I leave for Mazatlan with my posse. This will be the UFC Cage Match Showdown of Zen Tara v. San Francisco Tara - add margaritas, shake and watch what hapens. But I think it will be a good time to decompress, read, relax and just "be" for a few days (and besdies a half clothed dance on the bar never hurt anyone, right? RIGHT? Kidding. Mostly.). Even if mother nature sends a few thunderstorms our way, no worries mon. That's what the spa is for.
After all, what could be more Zen than a masseuse named Jesus.
Next stop...AYE YAE YAE!!!
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Hi Tara
You are all that and no one part of you is better than the other as long as you are just willing to be PRESENT to all of you. The trap of spiritual practice is the belief that there is a better version of you. If you continually return to Thich Nat Hahn, "Call me by my true names" you will have a template for what I've just mentioned. Be you--all of you--including the one that makes pasta and farts afterwards
Judy
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